|First day of new school for the boys - 24th June 2013|
When I first started my blog back in 2010, I didn't imagine that nearly 4 years later I would still be at it! My blog is an online diary of sorts, it has recorded our lives and adventures and I LOVE writing it but sometimes, life and big things get in the way.
I've always vowed I wouldn't blog about anything that could lead to the children being bullied so whilst the stories on my blog are all true, I wouldn't for one minute blog about personal emotions or trauma or use the children's real names. This is the reason for my silence. I have had a TOUGH year.
In June last year, I left HAW (him at work) for a number of reasons. I never, EVER imagined that I would end up a single parent to 3 children but people and values change and I couldn't stay a second longer for my own sanity. The children and I are now residing in a BEAUTIFUL part of the Oxfordshire countryside and all is good in our 'hood.
|The views opposite our house - STUNNING!|
Yet, despite this, I have had to deal with the fallout of separating which has been incredibly hard mentally and emotionally for me. It is akin to dealing with grief, all your hopes and dreams are crushed as you realise that the person you fell deeply, madly in love with has changed. It was and still is at times really REALLY hard but I thank God for my health and the love and support of my children and family and friends as I come through the other side.
Yes, I am financially crippled, but it just motivates me to push on as hard as I can at my own business in order for it to succeed. I refuse to sit back and rely on benefits which believe you me would be a hell of a lot easier than actually trying to make a living. I want to set a good example to my children and I am so SO grateful that I can and do work around the children.
I've also detoxed from the computer, wasting hours sitting there pinning things, or just surfing the net. Instead, I have refocussed on my mental and spiritual health, meditating and breathing and this has made me into a much more centred person.
Despite my lack of blogging, it hasn't meant I haven't been writing, I've kept a diary pretty much since the age of 10 and so reverted back to this, but something came to me whilst meditating and that was the need to get back at it. I can't make you any promises as to where this blog will now go, I can't make you any promises that it will be regular. All I do know is that I wanted to get "back at it" and with this in mind, here I am!
Did you miss me?!
Peace and Love