Wednesday, 12 March 2014

Why I haven't blogged for a long LONG time

First day of new school for the boys - 24th June 2013



When I first started my blog back in 2010, I didn't imagine that nearly 4 years later I would still be at it! My blog is an online diary of sorts, it has recorded our lives and adventures and I LOVE writing it but sometimes, life and big things get in the way.

I've always vowed I wouldn't blog about anything that could lead to the children being bullied so whilst the stories on my blog are all true, I wouldn't for one minute blog about personal emotions or trauma or use the children's real names.  This is the reason for my silence.  I have had a TOUGH year.

In June last year, I left HAW (him at work) for a number of reasons.   I never, EVER imagined that I would end up a single parent to 3 children but people and values change and I couldn't stay a second longer for my own sanity.  The children and I are now residing in a BEAUTIFUL part of the Oxfordshire countryside and all is good in our 'hood.



The views opposite our house - STUNNING!

Woodland Adventures


Yet, despite this, I have had to deal with the fallout of separating which has been incredibly hard mentally and emotionally for me.  It is akin to dealing with grief, all your hopes and dreams are crushed as you realise that the person you fell deeply, madly in love with has changed.  It was and still is at times really REALLY hard but I thank God for my health and the love and support of my children and family and friends as I come through the other side.

Yes, I am financially crippled, but it just motivates me to push on as hard as I can at my own business  in order for it to succeed.  I refuse to sit back and rely on benefits which believe you me would be a hell of a lot easier than actually trying to make a living.    I want to set a good example to my children and I am so SO grateful that I can and do work around the children.  

I've also detoxed from the computer, wasting hours sitting there pinning things, or just surfing the net.  Instead, I have refocussed on my mental and spiritual health, meditating and breathing and this has made me into a much more centred person.

Despite my lack of blogging, it hasn't meant I haven't been writing, I've kept a diary pretty much since the age of 10 and so reverted back to this, but something came to me whilst meditating and that was the need to get back at it.  I can't make you any promises as to where this blog will now go, I can't make you any promises that it will be regular.  All I do know is that I wanted to get "back at it" and with this in mind, here I am!

Did you miss me?!

Peace and Love



S.A.M xoxo




12 comments:

  1. Yes. I was only wondering this afternoon where you'd gone and if you were ok. Big hug to you.

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  2. Of course I missed you Soph, so glad this country life is really suiting you. We are all loving it too. Mich x

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  3. yes, missed you! Can't believe you are down the road and we haven't met up since you moved.

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  4. Good to see you back on board. I'm not going to fill this comment with cliches but you know where I am and you're doing fabulous!

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  5. Good to see you're back. And the new area and place looks AMAZING. Sounds like you're doing a fabulous job xx

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  6. Helloitsgemma13 March 2014 15:44

    Oh Sophie I do admire you, you truely are a woman of substance. Your children have do much to be proud of.

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  7. So glad to see you're out the other side. Things will only get better, I promise XXX

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  8. welcome back mrs. you sound like you are doing fabulously x

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  9. Sending love, hugs and understanding for such a strong woman. welcome back

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  10. Hello, I just came across your blog and I just wanted to say..well, all the best to you, good luck with it all. I've been having a similar issue with my blogging, sometimes things happen that just take you away (not that I'm that seasoned a blogger) but also sometimes the things that are filling your head are not things that you can write about. I've just had a period like that, I was getting into the swing of blogging and really enjoying it and then...life got in the way and it just didn't feel appropriate to write about it as it was happening but it was frustrating.

    I hope you enjoy being back, however much you are able to do.

    Best wishes
    Susie

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