It is 4am and insomnia has decided to visit me once again. So, I thought that as you dip in and out of my blog, I would write you a letter as I know you will read this at some point! It is not always easy to say how we feel, and I respect that you have asked me not to blog about it. However, I just wanted to let you know that you have astounded me with your strength and positivity that has been an honour to watch. We have ALL drawn strength from that. The last six months has been hard for everyone. It came as a bolt from the blue and knocked everyone for six. I think as a child you think your parents are invincible.
Nobody knows what the future holds, least of all me but I just wanted you to know that you are inspirational and I love you very very much. Everything you have done and continue to do for us all is very much appreciated and I hope that I am doing a good job of raising my children as you did us. We never know what is over the horizon, but by taking each day one step at a time and living for life in the moment and enjoying it, is what makes things count.
Life isn't easy for me at this time, but with you (and of course Dad!) by my side, I know I will come out of it the other side stronger, happier and wiser. Please just let me do what I have to do without comment or criticism as I try to make this life as best as I can for everyone. As a family unit we are close and that will never be broken, the values and beliefs that you have instilled in me will remain strong.
Life is a rocky road that we often question and doubt, but my faith is getting stronger as I tumble and turn along the way I do know, deep down in my heart that things are going to be just fine.
I love you very much and will see you in just a few hours time!
Peace and Love always