You were born at 00:12am and I had a very long labour that ended up in an emergency c-section. I had been in labour for 3 days and was absolutely exhausted. I had got to 9.5cm and then you went into distress and the quite literally cut you out of me as quickly as they could. My goodness, did you scream the place down!
You were rushed to the SCBU and Daddy stayed with you whilst I was wheeled back up to the ward. It was awful but I was shattered and hallucinating and so I slept until 9am. Daddy then wheeled me down to see you. You were 10lb 1oz of dark haired chubbiness and despite all the wires and tubes you were perfect, just perfect. I sobbed and sobbed as did Daddy as you were so, so wanted and so, so loved. One day I will tell you all about my pregnancy with you, it was incredibly stressful for everyone, but through it all, I just "knew" you would survive. Call it mothers instinct but I just knew you were a fighter.
In fact, we choose your name as it means "the greatest, the strongest" and I know that will stand you in good stead for whatever the future holds. Of that my darling, we are not sure but you can rest assured that Daddy and I are with you every step of the way and you are taking giant leaps every day.
This last year has been a massive learning curve for me as a parent, you are starting to push the boundaries and I am still trying to work out if we clash at times because you are like me, or if it is because we are opposites. I am not a perfect parent and I know I have little patience, but I want you to know that everything I do, I do for the good of this family and for you three kids. I don't always get it right, I can accept that, but I am trying so, so hard to instill good manners, respect and fun into everything we do.
You appear so confident and self assured but really, you are a sensitive soul who needs re-assurance a lot of the time. You are doing so well at school sweetheart, you are gifted in maths and have a very keen interest in History but you must start to believe that yourself and know that it really *really* doesn't matter if you get 13/15 on a spelling test.
The sports field is where you also excel and you play both rugby and football to a very high standard, always wanting to practise and excelling in what you do. You have a maturity on the sports field that isn't always shown at home and you are a very well liked and popular little boy with all your peers.
I am so proud of you darling, you are such great company and I love our little chats and cuddles once the other two are in bed. It is one of my favourite times of the day and I love that you always give me the biggest hug and kiss every morning and night, please always do this!!!
You are growing up into a fine young man and I love you so, so very much. You are my little superstar and I can't believe that this handsome, clever, wonderful little boy is mine!!!! Daddy and I are *very* clever to have made you.
Every night, we have the same routine of telling each other how much we love each other, ever since you read the book "Guess how much I love you" well my little poppet, I love you to the end of the world and back again and up to the moon and stars and out into infinity and that my son, is a very long way.